Well Kids,

I have been neglected all of you.  I am truly sorry I will be better, just because I need to write more for myself.  I had the most awesome weekend.  I learned so much about life and how life should be lived and how we live our life.  Everyone is soo different has so many things that we all go through both good and bad.  It is amazing how selfish and unwilling to accept we are, and yet how hypacritical we are, yes I know that really just doesn't look right but oh well.  I am looking for a new apartment if anyone needs a roomate or knows of a cheap one :) help me out here.

I am single still, which bothers me sometimes, and then again sometimes it doesn't.  I keep thining what if i meet the girl of my dreams, and im not the guy of her dreams--again haha it happens apparently to the best of us.  I'm just kind of venting right now.  But what if... what if we are meant to be together, im not at a point in my life where i can get married.  I want to fall in love so bad, but i'm afraid of getting hurt.  I know who isn't.  But its like every time i like someone very much they try to get what they want and then leave u without warning.  oh well!  Ive been accused of being too sweet and too thoughful and too nice.  That is somewhat changing.  DOnt get me wrong i will never ever ever try to hurt anyone but im not gonna be as avilable and as willing to put my hert out there.  so if there is anyone out there reading thing that likes me u better get a brick and attach a note :)  WARNING:  that was not an invitation to hit me or break any of my windows simply let me know :) haha.  It's ok I love it when a girl makes the move on me :) hint hint :)

Well I am at work, and im waiting on my highlight of thursday to come see me :) hint hint hee hee.  and anyone else who wants to come make my day.  i really need it, yes sometimes my smile is fake, but you could make it genuine :) so come on come do it.... :) and leave me some love :)

ronnie